Monday, 9 January 2012

Jumping hurdles

I've been putting off updating my blog for a little while now. My mood has been on the low side, to the point where I'm concerned my depression is back rather than this just being a blip. I don't want to whine about how sad and alone I feel.

I sat a numeracy test for my Return to Nursing course today. I revised all my nursing calculation info from my student days, only to get there and find it was just a basic adult numeracy test. It was very simple, and I now have a place on the course :) The only problem is that there aren't enough people to currently run the course. The uni want at least 15 people, and at the moment there are only 6. I don't know what is going to happen now, more waiting until either more people apply to join the course or until the uni agree to run the course with less people! Anyway, that is one more obstacle overcome. I'm on the course, now I just need a start date. The course was originally planned to start later this month.... I hate all this waiting!!!


  1. Depression is a horrible beast, Dawn. I suffered from severe depression for many years and it can eat away at you. You have a great deal to contend with, and things haven't gone as planned, so you're more vulnerable to a recurrence of depression. Your blog may not be the place you want to share your depressed feelings, but it may be wise to share it with someone. Talking things through with someone you trust can often help to sort things out in your head or just help by getting the stresses out of your system. Hang in there.

    Well done for getting through the numeracy test. I'm sure it's very disappointing not to be able to go straight onto the return to nursing course, but perhaps you can off-load some of your low spirits during this waiting time and get into a more positive frame of mind for when the course does get underway. Having said that, I'm sure that moving forward with your life again will help to alleviate some of the depression.

    Thinking of you.

  2. Hi Becky, after being on the NHS psychotherapy waiting list for 2 years, I'm now at the top of the list and will be starting psychotherapy later this month. I've had severe depression in the past, and yes you're right, I do seem to be vulnerable to getting caught up in the negative cycle of thoughts/feelings right now. Anyway, hopefully the psychotherapy will help. Thank you for taking the time to comment, and I hope you're well :) Dawn x